Archive for April, 2008
My porn: FoodNetwork.
His porn: the Golf Channel.
I’m hoping that I will look back at this time in my life as a period that helped define who I really am. Cuz in all honesty, right now it sucks pretty darn bad.
I just had a good sob and that helped somewhat.
I’ve talked several times about the incredible support I get from so many people in my life. Right now, the people whom I generally lean on are all dealing with their own issues, and I feel so helpless at times.
Having an addictive crutch I could turn to seems very appealing at this point (does caffeine-free Diet Pepsi count?) And what exactly would that addiction be? Bad-tasting fizzy brown water? I could go to BTFBWA. Think I may have to be the founder of that one. Funny how the sarcasm never seems to abandon me. It just includes more curse words.
Anyway, now that I feel I’m right in the thick of it all, I do NEED to write. I’ve been looking very inwardly lately and I now need to spend some time spewing it all. So, duck and cover. This one may be ugly.





